Chapter 27 ~ FINALE
Sabrina's Town Home
_ Cody had been playing all day in the park with Raven's nephew Jermaine, and he was tired. He was
knocked out cold in his sleep when Sabrina went to check on him one last time
before she prepared for bed. She closed his door and walked downstairs to make
sure all the doors were locked and the lights were shut off. She then walked
back upstairs and prepared to take a shower. She laid out her pink night shirt
out on her bed that she was going to wear once she got in bed after her shower. She took her
sweater off and walked back out into the small hallway and checked to see if
her heater was on. She noticed it was set on 80 degrees yet it was freezing in her
house. “Great.” Sabrina mumbled realizing her heater must be broken. She walked
back into her room rubbing her bare arms trying to heat herself. She then
proceeded to take the rest of her clothes off, tie her hair up into a bun, and
jumped into the warm shower.
While in the shower, she thought about her and Cody's day they spent with Raven and her nephew Jermaine. It was a good day. Sabrina smiled at the thought that she and Taylor are back on talking terms. She hoped things would get better with their relationship. Sabrina had to admit, she missed Taylor's old ways.
Fifteen minutes later Sabrina opened her shower curtain and stepped out. She dried herself off with a blue towel and then wrapped it around her semi damp body. She took the pin out of her hair that was holding it up, and shook her hair loose as she stared at herself in the mirror. She walked into her bedroom and proceeded to lotion her body with a pomegranate lemon scent. She dropped her towel to the floor and put on a pair of purple lace trim panties. She stopped and looked at herself in the full length mirror on her closet door. Her eyes lowered down to her flat stomach. She placed her hand on her belly. She couldn’t believe she was pregnant again. This was not in her plans to be pregnant when she’s all alone. She turned to the side to look at her own profile and imagined her belly was bigger. She rubbed her flat stomach once again thinking about a growing baby inside of her. Should she tell Nick about the baby? Should she even have the baby? Sabrina turned to look at her body full frontal again in deep thoughts.
The sound of her doorbell ringing made her jump, startled. She then heard a knock on her front door. She looked at the time. It read 10:59pm. “Who would be at my door at this time of night without calling first?” Sabrina said out loud to herself as she quickly grabbed her pink night shirt and threw it on over her head.
While in the shower, she thought about her and Cody's day they spent with Raven and her nephew Jermaine. It was a good day. Sabrina smiled at the thought that she and Taylor are back on talking terms. She hoped things would get better with their relationship. Sabrina had to admit, she missed Taylor's old ways.
Fifteen minutes later Sabrina opened her shower curtain and stepped out. She dried herself off with a blue towel and then wrapped it around her semi damp body. She took the pin out of her hair that was holding it up, and shook her hair loose as she stared at herself in the mirror. She walked into her bedroom and proceeded to lotion her body with a pomegranate lemon scent. She dropped her towel to the floor and put on a pair of purple lace trim panties. She stopped and looked at herself in the full length mirror on her closet door. Her eyes lowered down to her flat stomach. She placed her hand on her belly. She couldn’t believe she was pregnant again. This was not in her plans to be pregnant when she’s all alone. She turned to the side to look at her own profile and imagined her belly was bigger. She rubbed her flat stomach once again thinking about a growing baby inside of her. Should she tell Nick about the baby? Should she even have the baby? Sabrina turned to look at her body full frontal again in deep thoughts.
The sound of her doorbell ringing made her jump, startled. She then heard a knock on her front door. She looked at the time. It read 10:59pm. “Who would be at my door at this time of night without calling first?” Sabrina said out loud to herself as she quickly grabbed her pink night shirt and threw it on over her head.
Sabrina Night Shirt
_ As she reached the top of her steps she heard someone
knocking again. Sabrina rushed downstairs and walked toward her front door. She
stood on the tip of her toes and looked thru the peephole but didn’t see
anyone. Sabrina frowned slightly confused. She then looked thru the window and
still didn’t see anyone. She figured they must have left since she wasn’t fast
enough to answer the door.
Sabrina turned to walk away when the doorbell rung again. Sabrina jumped in fear. She then heard more knocking on the door. But this time the knocking came from her back door in the kitchen. Sabrina raised her hand up and placed it over her heart. Her heart was beating so fast it felt like it was going to pump out of her chest. She instantly thought about the person who had broken into her house a little over a month ago.
She quickly walked toward her kitchen and looked out the small window. It was Nick. Sabrina breathed a sigh of relief as she mumbled a curse. She turned on the kitchen light and unlocked the door. She quickly opened it saying, “Geez, Nick! You scared the hell out of me! What are you doing here?”
Nick stood there taking in her beauty. He then pulled a bouquet of yellow daisies from around his back. “Can we please talk?” He said in a deep voice.
Sabrina silently gasped when she saw the beautiful flowers. She stood back allowing Nick to step inside.
Nick slowly stepped into the door frame and held the daisies out for her to take.
Still holding her hand over her heart she took the flowers from him and gestured for him to come in.
Nick walked in wearing a brown long sleeves v-neck sweater, dark denim blue jeans, and a brown fitted baseball cap turned backwards. Sabrina thought he looked amazingly handsome as his silver chain necklace around his neck was like the icing on the cake. This was the first time she had seen him since he was bruised and battered in the hospital. Now, she thought, his face was back to its normal handsome face. However, his left eyebrow had a scar making his brow have a small gash. Sabrina thought it made him look so much sexier with a bad boy edge.
Sabrina closed the door behind Nick as she continued to look at him as he walked further into the kitchen. As she locked the door back, she finally said, “Nick…what are you doing here?”
Nick turned and looked at her as his eyes roamed up and down her body. He could tell she had just showered as her sweet scent filled his nose. He then responded, “It’s the only way I can get you to talk to me.”
Sabrina looked down at the beautiful daisies he had brought her. She raised her eyes back up to him. “Thank you for the flowers. You know you didn’t have to.” Sabrina then looked for something to place the flowers in.
Nick watched her as she moved about in the kitchen. Nick cleared his throat. “So…uh…you want to tell me why I have to drive 5 hours to force you to talk to me? Why haven’t you returned any of my calls?”
Sabrina continued to move about in the kitchen to place the flowers in a water filled vase. “I didn’t tell you to drive up here, Nick.” she replied calmly without looking at him.
“You don’t have to tell me to do a lot of things, Sabrina, but I do it. For you.” Nick said with a little attitude.
Sabrina stopped and turned around to look at Nick as she narrowed her eyes at him. “Did you come here to start an argument or to have a conversation?”
Nick started to say something he knew would just spark an explosive argument, so he opted to keep quiet. He looked down to recollect himself. He looked back up at her as she placed the flowers on the counter near the window over the sink.
“You’re right. Allow me to start over. So, how have you been?”
“Good. Thanks. You?”
“A lot better, considering the last time I talked to you.” Nick said flatly.
“Can I get you something to drink or eat? I mean…I know you just took a long drive…the least I can do is offer you something, right?”
“May I have some water, please?”
“Sure.” Sabrina responded as she walked toward the refrigerator to grab him a bottle of water. As she handed him the water she felt Nick staring at her. She continued, “Would you like to stay in the kitchen and talk, or go into the living room?”
“Here is fine.” Nick said as he pulled out a chair from the table in her kitchen.
Sabrina did the same sitting across from him.
They sat there in an awkward silence.
“So…?” Sabrina said finally breaking the silence.
“What happened, Brin? Why haven’t I heard from you?”
Sabrina looked down. “I didn’t think you had time for me.”
Nick frowned. “What do you mean? I’ve called and called you. I called you because I wanted to talk to you...obviously I had time for you.” “Well…I knew Joanna was there for you so…”
“Bullshit, Sabrina!” Nick said loudly upset.
“Okay, well maybe I have it backwards. You were there for her..”
“Nothing you’re saying is making any damn sense. Do you hear yourself?”
“Yes, I hear myself, do you—“ Sabrina stated getting louder trying to talk over Nick.
“Why don’t you just come out and say what’s really going on? Are you completely done with me? You’re done using me, now? Is that it?” Nick said angrily.
“Using you? I didn’t use you, what are you talking about?” Sabrina frowned as if she had just ate something sour.
“The court case is over and done with, so you no longer need me --”
“Nick, what are you talking abou—“
“No, listen to me dammit.” Nick pounded his fist on the table making Sabrina jump. “I’ve had plenty of time to think about this. I’ve come to realize that you are selfish, and spoiled. You harped and harped on me when you felt I wasn’t there for you. But when im lying in the fucking hospital about to lose my life for practically fighting for your respect from others and... you do nothing! Nothing, Sabrina. So yeah…you’re damn right Joanna was there. Shocked the hell out of me, but guess what…she was there for me. Where the hell were you?” Nick said angrily.
“Nick I was there, but you acted like you didn’t want me there!”
“Bullshit.”
“No, it’s not. My aunt Kelly and I were the ones who got you to the hospital. We stayed there while you were in surgery. We came back and that’s when Joanna and your mother were there. Your mother blamed me for you being there like it was all my fault – “
“I wouldn’t have been in there if I weren’t fighting for you…can you blame her?” Nick interrupted her.
Sabrina narrowed her eyes at him. “I didn’t tell you to fight Jacob! If you had just walked away, there would have been nothing for Roger and Paul to jump in about.”
“If you would have heard the shit Jacob was saying about you, you would have hit him too. How do you think it makes me feel to know that I have defended you for so long, and to find out that you had a relationship with Zack’s cousin, Josh? Do you know how that looks? How that made me look after all these years of defending you!” Nick shouted angrily.
“First of all, stop yelling, Cody is upstairs!” Sabrina yelled at Nick.
Nick sat back in his chair fuming with anger.
Sabrina glared at Nick. “And how dare you. I told you before…Im not having this conversation with you. If you don’t want to believe that I was raped by your so-called friends, then fuck you Nicholas Lancaster. I don’t have anything to prove to you!”
Nick paused for a moment. “So it’s true, right? Josh is Cody’s father.” Nick said in a low tone still upset as he glared at her.
“Yes, asshole, he is. Anything else you would like to know?” Sabrina answered as she folded her arms across her chest.
“What about Mitch. Did you have sex with him too?”
Sabrina squinted her eyes at him. “What? No! We talked about this before and I told you then.”
“Did you know he was the asshole who broke into your home that night? He was trying to scare you from going to testify against Zack. Mitch is one of Zack’s friends…did you know that?”
Sabrina thought for a moment as she looked away from Nick. She slowly turned her attention back to him. “How do you know all of this?” “Jacob told me. I didn’t know if I could believe him or not but he was pissing me off. And then when he told me about Josh…and then you told me he was in Orlando, I put two and two together that Jacob wasn’t lying about half the crap he was saying. I ask you questions and you act like you don’t know shit.”
“I DIDN"T KNOW JOSH WAS ZACK'S COUSIN!! Asshole!!” Sabrina shouted loudly in anger at Nick. “And No…I didn’t know anything about Mitch! You wanna talk about somebody playing dumb? What about YOU not telling me about Joanna being pregnant? Huh?!” Sabrina stood up and yelled at him as she walked over to him.
Nick looked up at her and saw how angry she was.
“When were you going to tell me about that? Huh?” She started to nudge him in his head with her hand. “You fucking lied to me! I can’t lie to you when I don’t know anything. I called and called you while you were at the hospital, but your mother or Joanna or whoever the hell it was obviously didn’t want me to talk to you. Your mother hates me…Joanna hates me…and for what? For something I didn’t do? Huh?” Sabrina pushed the side of his head again.
“Sabrina, stop.” Nick said calmly without looking at her.
“You’ve always had a relationship with Joanna, didn’t you?” Sabrina said pushing his shoulder hard almost pushing him out of his chair. “But im the whore, right? Im the one who slept with all of your stupid friends –“
Nick found himself having to stand up to protect himself from all of Sabrina’s hits. Nick grabbed her arms saying calmly, “Brin, stop.”
“No, you stop!” Sabrina said still trying to hit him. Her emotions took over allowing her to violently swing her arms at him wanting to slap or punch him in the face.
Nick found himself having to get rough with her as he pinned her arms up to her chest and slammed her up against the refrigerator allowing a few things to fall off the top of the refrigerator and a couple of magnets to drop off to the floor.
“STOP!” Nick shouted at her.
Sabrina stopped and winced as Nick slammed her against the refrigerator. She immediately started crying.
“Just…stop.” Nick said calmly as he watched her to start crying.
Sabrina lowered her head as tears streamed down her face as she sobbed.
Nick felt bad for having to handle her so roughly. He released her wrists and gently pulled her into his chest as Sabrina continued to cry. He wrapped his arms around her, tightly embracing her.
Sabrina turned to walk away when the doorbell rung again. Sabrina jumped in fear. She then heard more knocking on the door. But this time the knocking came from her back door in the kitchen. Sabrina raised her hand up and placed it over her heart. Her heart was beating so fast it felt like it was going to pump out of her chest. She instantly thought about the person who had broken into her house a little over a month ago.
She quickly walked toward her kitchen and looked out the small window. It was Nick. Sabrina breathed a sigh of relief as she mumbled a curse. She turned on the kitchen light and unlocked the door. She quickly opened it saying, “Geez, Nick! You scared the hell out of me! What are you doing here?”
Nick stood there taking in her beauty. He then pulled a bouquet of yellow daisies from around his back. “Can we please talk?” He said in a deep voice.
Sabrina silently gasped when she saw the beautiful flowers. She stood back allowing Nick to step inside.
Nick slowly stepped into the door frame and held the daisies out for her to take.
Still holding her hand over her heart she took the flowers from him and gestured for him to come in.
Nick walked in wearing a brown long sleeves v-neck sweater, dark denim blue jeans, and a brown fitted baseball cap turned backwards. Sabrina thought he looked amazingly handsome as his silver chain necklace around his neck was like the icing on the cake. This was the first time she had seen him since he was bruised and battered in the hospital. Now, she thought, his face was back to its normal handsome face. However, his left eyebrow had a scar making his brow have a small gash. Sabrina thought it made him look so much sexier with a bad boy edge.
Sabrina closed the door behind Nick as she continued to look at him as he walked further into the kitchen. As she locked the door back, she finally said, “Nick…what are you doing here?”
Nick turned and looked at her as his eyes roamed up and down her body. He could tell she had just showered as her sweet scent filled his nose. He then responded, “It’s the only way I can get you to talk to me.”
Sabrina looked down at the beautiful daisies he had brought her. She raised her eyes back up to him. “Thank you for the flowers. You know you didn’t have to.” Sabrina then looked for something to place the flowers in.
Nick watched her as she moved about in the kitchen. Nick cleared his throat. “So…uh…you want to tell me why I have to drive 5 hours to force you to talk to me? Why haven’t you returned any of my calls?”
Sabrina continued to move about in the kitchen to place the flowers in a water filled vase. “I didn’t tell you to drive up here, Nick.” she replied calmly without looking at him.
“You don’t have to tell me to do a lot of things, Sabrina, but I do it. For you.” Nick said with a little attitude.
Sabrina stopped and turned around to look at Nick as she narrowed her eyes at him. “Did you come here to start an argument or to have a conversation?”
Nick started to say something he knew would just spark an explosive argument, so he opted to keep quiet. He looked down to recollect himself. He looked back up at her as she placed the flowers on the counter near the window over the sink.
“You’re right. Allow me to start over. So, how have you been?”
“Good. Thanks. You?”
“A lot better, considering the last time I talked to you.” Nick said flatly.
“Can I get you something to drink or eat? I mean…I know you just took a long drive…the least I can do is offer you something, right?”
“May I have some water, please?”
“Sure.” Sabrina responded as she walked toward the refrigerator to grab him a bottle of water. As she handed him the water she felt Nick staring at her. She continued, “Would you like to stay in the kitchen and talk, or go into the living room?”
“Here is fine.” Nick said as he pulled out a chair from the table in her kitchen.
Sabrina did the same sitting across from him.
They sat there in an awkward silence.
“So…?” Sabrina said finally breaking the silence.
“What happened, Brin? Why haven’t I heard from you?”
Sabrina looked down. “I didn’t think you had time for me.”
Nick frowned. “What do you mean? I’ve called and called you. I called you because I wanted to talk to you...obviously I had time for you.” “Well…I knew Joanna was there for you so…”
“Bullshit, Sabrina!” Nick said loudly upset.
“Okay, well maybe I have it backwards. You were there for her..”
“Nothing you’re saying is making any damn sense. Do you hear yourself?”
“Yes, I hear myself, do you—“ Sabrina stated getting louder trying to talk over Nick.
“Why don’t you just come out and say what’s really going on? Are you completely done with me? You’re done using me, now? Is that it?” Nick said angrily.
“Using you? I didn’t use you, what are you talking about?” Sabrina frowned as if she had just ate something sour.
“The court case is over and done with, so you no longer need me --”
“Nick, what are you talking abou—“
“No, listen to me dammit.” Nick pounded his fist on the table making Sabrina jump. “I’ve had plenty of time to think about this. I’ve come to realize that you are selfish, and spoiled. You harped and harped on me when you felt I wasn’t there for you. But when im lying in the fucking hospital about to lose my life for practically fighting for your respect from others and... you do nothing! Nothing, Sabrina. So yeah…you’re damn right Joanna was there. Shocked the hell out of me, but guess what…she was there for me. Where the hell were you?” Nick said angrily.
“Nick I was there, but you acted like you didn’t want me there!”
“Bullshit.”
“No, it’s not. My aunt Kelly and I were the ones who got you to the hospital. We stayed there while you were in surgery. We came back and that’s when Joanna and your mother were there. Your mother blamed me for you being there like it was all my fault – “
“I wouldn’t have been in there if I weren’t fighting for you…can you blame her?” Nick interrupted her.
Sabrina narrowed her eyes at him. “I didn’t tell you to fight Jacob! If you had just walked away, there would have been nothing for Roger and Paul to jump in about.”
“If you would have heard the shit Jacob was saying about you, you would have hit him too. How do you think it makes me feel to know that I have defended you for so long, and to find out that you had a relationship with Zack’s cousin, Josh? Do you know how that looks? How that made me look after all these years of defending you!” Nick shouted angrily.
“First of all, stop yelling, Cody is upstairs!” Sabrina yelled at Nick.
Nick sat back in his chair fuming with anger.
Sabrina glared at Nick. “And how dare you. I told you before…Im not having this conversation with you. If you don’t want to believe that I was raped by your so-called friends, then fuck you Nicholas Lancaster. I don’t have anything to prove to you!”
Nick paused for a moment. “So it’s true, right? Josh is Cody’s father.” Nick said in a low tone still upset as he glared at her.
“Yes, asshole, he is. Anything else you would like to know?” Sabrina answered as she folded her arms across her chest.
“What about Mitch. Did you have sex with him too?”
Sabrina squinted her eyes at him. “What? No! We talked about this before and I told you then.”
“Did you know he was the asshole who broke into your home that night? He was trying to scare you from going to testify against Zack. Mitch is one of Zack’s friends…did you know that?”
Sabrina thought for a moment as she looked away from Nick. She slowly turned her attention back to him. “How do you know all of this?” “Jacob told me. I didn’t know if I could believe him or not but he was pissing me off. And then when he told me about Josh…and then you told me he was in Orlando, I put two and two together that Jacob wasn’t lying about half the crap he was saying. I ask you questions and you act like you don’t know shit.”
“I DIDN"T KNOW JOSH WAS ZACK'S COUSIN!! Asshole!!” Sabrina shouted loudly in anger at Nick. “And No…I didn’t know anything about Mitch! You wanna talk about somebody playing dumb? What about YOU not telling me about Joanna being pregnant? Huh?!” Sabrina stood up and yelled at him as she walked over to him.
Nick looked up at her and saw how angry she was.
“When were you going to tell me about that? Huh?” She started to nudge him in his head with her hand. “You fucking lied to me! I can’t lie to you when I don’t know anything. I called and called you while you were at the hospital, but your mother or Joanna or whoever the hell it was obviously didn’t want me to talk to you. Your mother hates me…Joanna hates me…and for what? For something I didn’t do? Huh?” Sabrina pushed the side of his head again.
“Sabrina, stop.” Nick said calmly without looking at her.
“You’ve always had a relationship with Joanna, didn’t you?” Sabrina said pushing his shoulder hard almost pushing him out of his chair. “But im the whore, right? Im the one who slept with all of your stupid friends –“
Nick found himself having to stand up to protect himself from all of Sabrina’s hits. Nick grabbed her arms saying calmly, “Brin, stop.”
“No, you stop!” Sabrina said still trying to hit him. Her emotions took over allowing her to violently swing her arms at him wanting to slap or punch him in the face.
Nick found himself having to get rough with her as he pinned her arms up to her chest and slammed her up against the refrigerator allowing a few things to fall off the top of the refrigerator and a couple of magnets to drop off to the floor.
“STOP!” Nick shouted at her.
Sabrina stopped and winced as Nick slammed her against the refrigerator. She immediately started crying.
“Just…stop.” Nick said calmly as he watched her to start crying.
Sabrina lowered her head as tears streamed down her face as she sobbed.
Nick felt bad for having to handle her so roughly. He released her wrists and gently pulled her into his chest as Sabrina continued to cry. He wrapped his arms around her, tightly embracing her.
_They stood there as Sabrina cried into his chest for a few
seconds until they heard a voice from upstairs. “Mom?”
Sabrina quickly yet quietly pushed Nick away from her. She had to push him twice so she could move away from him as she quickly wiped her tears away. She walked toward the steps and saw Cody standing at the top of the stairs.
“Hey…baby!” Sabrina said trying to sound like everything was okay as she walked up the steps.
“Are you okay? I thought I heard something.” Cody said wiping his sleepy eyes.
Sabrina continued to walk up the stairs still wiping her face dry and planting a smile on her face. “No…everything is okay. I guess I had the television up to loud.”
“But you’re crying?”
“No, baby, I'm fine. I promise. Just go back to bed, okay?” Sabrina said walking Cody back into his room.
“Okay.” Cody said in his tired voice.
He snuggled back into his bed underneath the covers and dozed back off to sleep before Sabrina was even able to leave his room. Sabrina turned on his small radio so he could hear soft music instead of the arguing downstairs, if it was going to continue. Sabrina closed his door and took a deep breath as she pushed her hair back away from her face.
She slowly walked down the stairs to see Nick pacing the kitchen floor as if he were in deep thoughts. He stopped when he saw Sabrina coming down the steps. He slowly started to walk up to her, however Sabrina passed him and walked toward the back door. She unlocked it and opened it.
“You should leave.” She said softly avoiding eye contact with him.
“Brin…Im sorry. This didn’t turn out how I imagined when I made the drive up here.”
“Please leave, Nick.” She stated in a soft calm voice still avoiding eye contact.
Nick stood there and stared at her for a moment.
Sabrina finally looked at him. “Nick…please.” She begged still holding the door open for him to leave.
Nick finally walked up toward her as he gazed into her eyes. He smoothly raised his right hand up to her jaw line, tilting her head up as he landed his lips onto her lips while closing the door shut with the other hand. Once the door was shut closed, he immediately brought his free hand up to the other side of her face as he continued to kiss her while slowly backing her into the wall. Sabrina found herself kissing him back as she closed her eyes. She could feel a tear roll down her cheek as she brought her hands up to hold on to his shirt around his torso. He continued to softly kiss her lips wanting to feel the fullness of her lips on his.
She then slowly brought her hands up to his chest. She pressed the palms of her hands against his muscular pecs thru his shirt and lightly pushed him away trying to speak thru his kiss. “Please…stop.” She managed to say as Nick slowly stopped kissing her however still holding her face in his hands.
“Brin, I love you.” Nick said softly burning into her eyes.
Sabrina moved her head so he would remove his hands from her face. Her tears were like water work as they continued to fall down her face. Nick tried to wipe them away with his hands as he lightly touched her face.
She pulled his hands away saying, “Nick…don’t.”
“What, Brin? Don’t what?” Nick asked in a soft voice not understanding her. “I love you. Do you not love me anymore?”
Sabrina looked away and didn’t respond.
Nick removed his hands from her face and brought his hand down as he continued to stand close, towering over her not wanting her to move. “Did you ever love me? Or did you just say you love me because you thought it was something I wanted to hear?”
Sabrina held her head down.
Nick was shocked at her silence. Her silence answered his question. She never loved him. “Wow.” He said almost in a whisper as he stepped back away from her.
Sabrina finally looked up at him. “Nick we can never be together.”
Nick rubbed the back of his neck not looking at her. He was still trying to gather the concept that she never really loved him.
Sabrina sniffed as she ran her fingers thru her hair not sure what to say next. She then continued, “Nick you’re building your own family with Joanna—“
“I don’t love her!” Nick interrupted her speaking a little louder than he had intended. He continued, “I never loved her. I love you, dammit. I’ve always loved you. Can't you see that?”
Sabrina sobbed and quickly tried to remain calm. She spoke as her voice trembled, “It won’t work, Nick. You’re in Gainesville, Im here in Atlanta. You’re about to have another child with her—“
“We don’t know that.” Nick stated firmly.
“And you’re in denial, Nick.”
Nick sighed as he looked at her.
“So…that’s it. You’re really breaking up with me.”
“Nick, we were never really together.”
“Wow.” Nick said in disbelief. He felt like he totally played himself. He suddenly felt like an idiot for driving all the way up the road to be there. He took a deep breath. “Wow..okay…uhm..wow.” Nick said speechless.
“We can always be friends, right?” Sabrina said wiping a single tear away from her face.
Nick stared at her. “No…I don’t think so.”
“Why? You’re going to let this ruin our friendship? We’ve been friends for so long.”
“Exactly. We went from friends to lovers and you think I can just go back to being just friends? We made love together.” Nick suddenly stopped and corrected himself. “…Well…I made love to you. I can’t just go back to whatever it was we had before that. It’s either all or nothing.”
“That’s not fair, Nick.”
Nick chuckled. “That’s not fair? What’s not fair is that I can’t get love back from the girl I love. That’s not fair.”
Sabrina covered her face with her hands tired of having her tears take over. She then pushed her hands up into her hair flipping it behind her shoulders. She wondered if she should tell him if she was pregnant or not. The thought of that made her cry even more as she sat back down at the kitchen table.
Nick saw her emotions really start to take over. He couldn’t understand why she was crying so much if she didn’t want to be with him. She should be happy, he thought. “Im not sure why you’re so emotional if you don’t love me and don’t want to be with me. You’re supposed to be happy, right?”
Sabrina didn’t respond.
“Alright. Well..Im gonna say this…and I promise to leave you alone. Im sorry about how things turned out with us. I do believe the things that happened to you in the past are true. Im sorry for being a jerk and putting you thru so much. I still love you and I always will. Even if you do want to just be… friends. Just…don’t expect much from me as just your friend.” Nick said softly and took a deep breath as he stared at Sabrina’s back.
She still didn’t say anything.
“Can you look at me?” Nick asked.
Sabrina didn’t respond. She kept her back turned toward him as he watched her wipe her tears away from her face.
Nick sighed with disappointment. “Okay…” Nick said softly. “I’ll leave. Bye, Bri-bear.” Nick said and turned toward the door.
Just as he opened the door, he heard Sabrina say, “Nick, Im pregnant.”
Nick froze as he stood in the open door frame. He turned around and saw Sabrina still wasn’t facing him. He only saw her long dark hair flowing down her shoulders. Nick took a couple of steps back into the kitchen. “Wait…what?”
Sabrina sniffed and rested her forehead on the palm of her hands. “I said, Im pregnant.”
Nick placed his hands on his waist and leaned his head back as he looked up at the ceiling. He sighed in deep thoughts. He then looked back at Sabrina who had yet to turn around to look at him. “For real?” Nick asked.
“Yeah…for real.” Sabrina said flatly still not looking at him.
Nick silently said a curse. He backed into the door and closed it shut as he leaned against it keeping his eyes on Sabrina. He rubbed his hands over his face as he walked toward Sabrina. He could hear her sniffing as she continued to cry. Once he approached her, he squatted down to the floor as he placed his right hand on the table and grabbing her smooth legs turning them toward him so she would be facing him. Nick looked up at her as she kept her eyes down not looking at Nick.
“Baby, when were you going to tell me? Were you really going to let me leave without you telling me?” Nick asked in a low husky tone as he looked up at her while softly caressing her knees.
Sabrina raised her head and gave her face a wipe down with her hands attempting to dry her face from her tears. She then sighed loudly as she ran her fingers thru her hair and finally looked down at his handsome face.
“To be honest…I wasn’t sure if I was going to have it.”
Nick frowned at her. “Are you kidding me? Are you crazy? You’re not aborting my baby.”
Sabrina took another deep breath as she looked down at his sincere face. “So…you’re not mad that you have two females pregnant at the same time?”
“Allegedly two females, let’s keep that in mind.”
Sabrina rolled her eyes.
“Let me tell you something.” Nick stated. He then stood up and gently grabbed Sabrina’s hands. “Come here.”
Sabrina looked up at him not sure what he was up to. “What?” She stated rather than in a question.
“Just stand up for me. Please.” Nick said almost in a whisper.
For some reason the way he looked at her and said those last words made her melt. The way he was so tender and yet so demanding of her drove her high into the clouds. It was a feeling she loved to feel with him.
Sabrina slowly stood up with his assistance as he raised her arms up a bit. Just as Sabrina stood up and looked up into his daring yet lustful brown eyes, he lowered himself down on bended knee as he continued to hold her hands into his.
He looked up at her and said in a soft voice. “I am not mad that you’re having my baby. Our baby. My family is expanding and it only consists of the following: …I only have a beautiful 4 yr old little girl, a healthy baby that’s growing inside of you…and with Cody’s blessings,” Nick smiled thinking of Cody. He then continued, “I can have you as my wife and Cody as a stepson. I’ll treat Cody like he is my own…and that is a promise.”
“Nick…baby, you’re in denial.” Sabrina said reminding him about Joanna’s growing baby as well.
Nick lightly shook his head no. “Bri…I swear..and I know with all of my heart, Joanna is not pregnant with my child. You have to believe me. I’ll prove it…but I just need you to trust me on this. Do you believe me?”
Sabrina looked down at him not really sure. She thought he looked so sure of himself…he had to be telling the truth, right?
“So, you never slept with her?” Sabrina asked somberly.
“Unfortunately, I did, but baby Im telling you, it was so long ago. Her pregnancy just doesn’t add up to me. You don’t know Joanna like I know her. She is conniving and so full of it.” Nick paused and continued, “Brin, please believe me when I say that baby she's carrying is not mine.”
Sabrina took a deep breath as she continued to look down at him as her hair flowed around her face wondering if she should really believe him.
“Just have my baby and marry me, girl!” Nick said in a joking manner yet he was entirely serious.
Sabrina burst out into a quiet laugh as she flipped her head back to remove her hair from her face. She looked back down at him and raised his hands up saying, “Shut-up and get up off the floor. You don’t even have a ring.”
Nick chuckled as he stood up. “Just you wait.” He said with a smile as he immediately wrapped his arms around her small waist placing his hands on the small of her back.
He pulled her close into him as he leaned forward planting a kiss on her lips. Sabrina kissed him back as she leaned back from his weight pushing into her. Nick slightly pulled away allowing her to stand straight while keeping her very close to him. “So…you’re what…about a month pregnant?” he asked in a low voice.
Sabrina smiled. “Yeah. Wasn’t that the last time we made love.” Sabrina said emphasizing on the word ‘we’.
Nick grinned as he gazed into her eyes.
Sabrina reached up, cradling his face into her hands as her smile slowly faded. Their eyes danced back and forth as they stared at each other as if searching for truth, comfort, and any unclear answers. Sabrina finally asked, “Do you swear that she’s not carrying your baby? I mean are you 100% sure?”
“Baby, I swear. Im 1,000% sure.” Nick said softly as he burned into her eyes.
Sabrina remained silent as she continued to stare into his eyes. He sounded so confident in his answer, Sabrina found herself really believing him. She finally stated, "I do love you, Nick. But…It hurts me so much that we can’t be together when I love you so much.”
“Baby, we can be together.”
“No…we can’t. Are you going to move up here and leave your kids?”
“Hell…either way im leaving one of my kids. If I stay in Gainesville and you stay here, won’t I be leaving our child?” he said placing his hand on her belly. “That’s why it would be so much easier if you just moved in with me. You and Cody.”
Sabrina shook her head no. “I can’t.”
“Why not?”
“I just can’t, Nick.”
“Alright. Don’t worry. You have time to think about it.”
Sabrina tsked. “No I don’t.”
“Yeah…you do. Don’t stress about it. We’ll figure this thing out. I don’t need you stressing my son.” Nick added as he glanced down at her belly.
Sabrina couldn’t help but giggle. “How do you know it’s a boy?”
Nick smiled as he tightened his grip around her waist. He slowly lowered his hands lightly resting his hands on her butt. He shrugged his shoulders as he leaned forward close to her lips. “I don’t know. I just have a feeling.”
He then kissed her, slowly deepening their kiss.
“Do you really love me?” Nick asked as he suddenly pulled away from their kiss leaving Sabrina's lips to kiss the air.
Sabrina kept her arms wrapped around his neck as she slowly opened her eyes to look up at him. “Yes. And… Im so sorry for making you feel like I used you. I never had those intentions. I don’t know what I would have done without you. I thank you from the bottom of my heart, Nick, for everything you've done for me. I just got scared that I may have lost you to Joanna. It’s like she will always have a place in your heart—“
“No...She will always be in my life because of Jossy…but she will never have a place in my heart. That spot is already taken…by you.” Nick interrupted her.
Sabrina smiled. “I love you so much, Nicholas Lancaster.”
“I love you too, Sabrina Marie Cain…Lancaster.”
Sabrina snickered.
“Nice ring to it, right?” Nick teased.
Sabrina paused and thought for a moment. She then said, “Sabrina Cain-Lancaster sounds better.” Sabrina giggled as she wrinkled her nose up at him.
She then took his hat off and put it on her head turning it to the side.
Nick smiled leaning down into her to kiss her lips.
They began to kiss each other passionately as Sabrina ran her fingers thru the back of his hair. Nick swiftly lifted her up off her feet wrapping her legs around his torso with ease.
Sabrina looked down at him as she lovingly caressed his face staring lustfully into his eyes.
“You know we could have avoided all that arguing if you just would have told me you were pregnant in the first place, right?” Nick said with a grin as he looked up at her while holding her.
“But isn’t make-up sex better?” She said in her sexy voice.
“Definitely.” Nick grinned.
Sabrina brought her lips inches away from Nick's full lips. She softly stated, “Please take me upstairs so I can make love to you.”
Nick smiled thinking how sexy she sounded saying those words as she wore his fitted baseball cap turned to the side. “Yes, ma’am…With pleasure.” Nick said softly and began walking upstairs to her bedroom.
Sabrina quickly yet quietly pushed Nick away from her. She had to push him twice so she could move away from him as she quickly wiped her tears away. She walked toward the steps and saw Cody standing at the top of the stairs.
“Hey…baby!” Sabrina said trying to sound like everything was okay as she walked up the steps.
“Are you okay? I thought I heard something.” Cody said wiping his sleepy eyes.
Sabrina continued to walk up the stairs still wiping her face dry and planting a smile on her face. “No…everything is okay. I guess I had the television up to loud.”
“But you’re crying?”
“No, baby, I'm fine. I promise. Just go back to bed, okay?” Sabrina said walking Cody back into his room.
“Okay.” Cody said in his tired voice.
He snuggled back into his bed underneath the covers and dozed back off to sleep before Sabrina was even able to leave his room. Sabrina turned on his small radio so he could hear soft music instead of the arguing downstairs, if it was going to continue. Sabrina closed his door and took a deep breath as she pushed her hair back away from her face.
She slowly walked down the stairs to see Nick pacing the kitchen floor as if he were in deep thoughts. He stopped when he saw Sabrina coming down the steps. He slowly started to walk up to her, however Sabrina passed him and walked toward the back door. She unlocked it and opened it.
“You should leave.” She said softly avoiding eye contact with him.
“Brin…Im sorry. This didn’t turn out how I imagined when I made the drive up here.”
“Please leave, Nick.” She stated in a soft calm voice still avoiding eye contact.
Nick stood there and stared at her for a moment.
Sabrina finally looked at him. “Nick…please.” She begged still holding the door open for him to leave.
Nick finally walked up toward her as he gazed into her eyes. He smoothly raised his right hand up to her jaw line, tilting her head up as he landed his lips onto her lips while closing the door shut with the other hand. Once the door was shut closed, he immediately brought his free hand up to the other side of her face as he continued to kiss her while slowly backing her into the wall. Sabrina found herself kissing him back as she closed her eyes. She could feel a tear roll down her cheek as she brought her hands up to hold on to his shirt around his torso. He continued to softly kiss her lips wanting to feel the fullness of her lips on his.
She then slowly brought her hands up to his chest. She pressed the palms of her hands against his muscular pecs thru his shirt and lightly pushed him away trying to speak thru his kiss. “Please…stop.” She managed to say as Nick slowly stopped kissing her however still holding her face in his hands.
“Brin, I love you.” Nick said softly burning into her eyes.
Sabrina moved her head so he would remove his hands from her face. Her tears were like water work as they continued to fall down her face. Nick tried to wipe them away with his hands as he lightly touched her face.
She pulled his hands away saying, “Nick…don’t.”
“What, Brin? Don’t what?” Nick asked in a soft voice not understanding her. “I love you. Do you not love me anymore?”
Sabrina looked away and didn’t respond.
Nick removed his hands from her face and brought his hand down as he continued to stand close, towering over her not wanting her to move. “Did you ever love me? Or did you just say you love me because you thought it was something I wanted to hear?”
Sabrina held her head down.
Nick was shocked at her silence. Her silence answered his question. She never loved him. “Wow.” He said almost in a whisper as he stepped back away from her.
Sabrina finally looked up at him. “Nick we can never be together.”
Nick rubbed the back of his neck not looking at her. He was still trying to gather the concept that she never really loved him.
Sabrina sniffed as she ran her fingers thru her hair not sure what to say next. She then continued, “Nick you’re building your own family with Joanna—“
“I don’t love her!” Nick interrupted her speaking a little louder than he had intended. He continued, “I never loved her. I love you, dammit. I’ve always loved you. Can't you see that?”
Sabrina sobbed and quickly tried to remain calm. She spoke as her voice trembled, “It won’t work, Nick. You’re in Gainesville, Im here in Atlanta. You’re about to have another child with her—“
“We don’t know that.” Nick stated firmly.
“And you’re in denial, Nick.”
Nick sighed as he looked at her.
“So…that’s it. You’re really breaking up with me.”
“Nick, we were never really together.”
“Wow.” Nick said in disbelief. He felt like he totally played himself. He suddenly felt like an idiot for driving all the way up the road to be there. He took a deep breath. “Wow..okay…uhm..wow.” Nick said speechless.
“We can always be friends, right?” Sabrina said wiping a single tear away from her face.
Nick stared at her. “No…I don’t think so.”
“Why? You’re going to let this ruin our friendship? We’ve been friends for so long.”
“Exactly. We went from friends to lovers and you think I can just go back to being just friends? We made love together.” Nick suddenly stopped and corrected himself. “…Well…I made love to you. I can’t just go back to whatever it was we had before that. It’s either all or nothing.”
“That’s not fair, Nick.”
Nick chuckled. “That’s not fair? What’s not fair is that I can’t get love back from the girl I love. That’s not fair.”
Sabrina covered her face with her hands tired of having her tears take over. She then pushed her hands up into her hair flipping it behind her shoulders. She wondered if she should tell him if she was pregnant or not. The thought of that made her cry even more as she sat back down at the kitchen table.
Nick saw her emotions really start to take over. He couldn’t understand why she was crying so much if she didn’t want to be with him. She should be happy, he thought. “Im not sure why you’re so emotional if you don’t love me and don’t want to be with me. You’re supposed to be happy, right?”
Sabrina didn’t respond.
“Alright. Well..Im gonna say this…and I promise to leave you alone. Im sorry about how things turned out with us. I do believe the things that happened to you in the past are true. Im sorry for being a jerk and putting you thru so much. I still love you and I always will. Even if you do want to just be… friends. Just…don’t expect much from me as just your friend.” Nick said softly and took a deep breath as he stared at Sabrina’s back.
She still didn’t say anything.
“Can you look at me?” Nick asked.
Sabrina didn’t respond. She kept her back turned toward him as he watched her wipe her tears away from her face.
Nick sighed with disappointment. “Okay…” Nick said softly. “I’ll leave. Bye, Bri-bear.” Nick said and turned toward the door.
Just as he opened the door, he heard Sabrina say, “Nick, Im pregnant.”
Nick froze as he stood in the open door frame. He turned around and saw Sabrina still wasn’t facing him. He only saw her long dark hair flowing down her shoulders. Nick took a couple of steps back into the kitchen. “Wait…what?”
Sabrina sniffed and rested her forehead on the palm of her hands. “I said, Im pregnant.”
Nick placed his hands on his waist and leaned his head back as he looked up at the ceiling. He sighed in deep thoughts. He then looked back at Sabrina who had yet to turn around to look at him. “For real?” Nick asked.
“Yeah…for real.” Sabrina said flatly still not looking at him.
Nick silently said a curse. He backed into the door and closed it shut as he leaned against it keeping his eyes on Sabrina. He rubbed his hands over his face as he walked toward Sabrina. He could hear her sniffing as she continued to cry. Once he approached her, he squatted down to the floor as he placed his right hand on the table and grabbing her smooth legs turning them toward him so she would be facing him. Nick looked up at her as she kept her eyes down not looking at Nick.
“Baby, when were you going to tell me? Were you really going to let me leave without you telling me?” Nick asked in a low husky tone as he looked up at her while softly caressing her knees.
Sabrina raised her head and gave her face a wipe down with her hands attempting to dry her face from her tears. She then sighed loudly as she ran her fingers thru her hair and finally looked down at his handsome face.
“To be honest…I wasn’t sure if I was going to have it.”
Nick frowned at her. “Are you kidding me? Are you crazy? You’re not aborting my baby.”
Sabrina took another deep breath as she looked down at his sincere face. “So…you’re not mad that you have two females pregnant at the same time?”
“Allegedly two females, let’s keep that in mind.”
Sabrina rolled her eyes.
“Let me tell you something.” Nick stated. He then stood up and gently grabbed Sabrina’s hands. “Come here.”
Sabrina looked up at him not sure what he was up to. “What?” She stated rather than in a question.
“Just stand up for me. Please.” Nick said almost in a whisper.
For some reason the way he looked at her and said those last words made her melt. The way he was so tender and yet so demanding of her drove her high into the clouds. It was a feeling she loved to feel with him.
Sabrina slowly stood up with his assistance as he raised her arms up a bit. Just as Sabrina stood up and looked up into his daring yet lustful brown eyes, he lowered himself down on bended knee as he continued to hold her hands into his.
He looked up at her and said in a soft voice. “I am not mad that you’re having my baby. Our baby. My family is expanding and it only consists of the following: …I only have a beautiful 4 yr old little girl, a healthy baby that’s growing inside of you…and with Cody’s blessings,” Nick smiled thinking of Cody. He then continued, “I can have you as my wife and Cody as a stepson. I’ll treat Cody like he is my own…and that is a promise.”
“Nick…baby, you’re in denial.” Sabrina said reminding him about Joanna’s growing baby as well.
Nick lightly shook his head no. “Bri…I swear..and I know with all of my heart, Joanna is not pregnant with my child. You have to believe me. I’ll prove it…but I just need you to trust me on this. Do you believe me?”
Sabrina looked down at him not really sure. She thought he looked so sure of himself…he had to be telling the truth, right?
“So, you never slept with her?” Sabrina asked somberly.
“Unfortunately, I did, but baby Im telling you, it was so long ago. Her pregnancy just doesn’t add up to me. You don’t know Joanna like I know her. She is conniving and so full of it.” Nick paused and continued, “Brin, please believe me when I say that baby she's carrying is not mine.”
Sabrina took a deep breath as she continued to look down at him as her hair flowed around her face wondering if she should really believe him.
“Just have my baby and marry me, girl!” Nick said in a joking manner yet he was entirely serious.
Sabrina burst out into a quiet laugh as she flipped her head back to remove her hair from her face. She looked back down at him and raised his hands up saying, “Shut-up and get up off the floor. You don’t even have a ring.”
Nick chuckled as he stood up. “Just you wait.” He said with a smile as he immediately wrapped his arms around her small waist placing his hands on the small of her back.
He pulled her close into him as he leaned forward planting a kiss on her lips. Sabrina kissed him back as she leaned back from his weight pushing into her. Nick slightly pulled away allowing her to stand straight while keeping her very close to him. “So…you’re what…about a month pregnant?” he asked in a low voice.
Sabrina smiled. “Yeah. Wasn’t that the last time we made love.” Sabrina said emphasizing on the word ‘we’.
Nick grinned as he gazed into her eyes.
Sabrina reached up, cradling his face into her hands as her smile slowly faded. Their eyes danced back and forth as they stared at each other as if searching for truth, comfort, and any unclear answers. Sabrina finally asked, “Do you swear that she’s not carrying your baby? I mean are you 100% sure?”
“Baby, I swear. Im 1,000% sure.” Nick said softly as he burned into her eyes.
Sabrina remained silent as she continued to stare into his eyes. He sounded so confident in his answer, Sabrina found herself really believing him. She finally stated, "I do love you, Nick. But…It hurts me so much that we can’t be together when I love you so much.”
“Baby, we can be together.”
“No…we can’t. Are you going to move up here and leave your kids?”
“Hell…either way im leaving one of my kids. If I stay in Gainesville and you stay here, won’t I be leaving our child?” he said placing his hand on her belly. “That’s why it would be so much easier if you just moved in with me. You and Cody.”
Sabrina shook her head no. “I can’t.”
“Why not?”
“I just can’t, Nick.”
“Alright. Don’t worry. You have time to think about it.”
Sabrina tsked. “No I don’t.”
“Yeah…you do. Don’t stress about it. We’ll figure this thing out. I don’t need you stressing my son.” Nick added as he glanced down at her belly.
Sabrina couldn’t help but giggle. “How do you know it’s a boy?”
Nick smiled as he tightened his grip around her waist. He slowly lowered his hands lightly resting his hands on her butt. He shrugged his shoulders as he leaned forward close to her lips. “I don’t know. I just have a feeling.”
He then kissed her, slowly deepening their kiss.
“Do you really love me?” Nick asked as he suddenly pulled away from their kiss leaving Sabrina's lips to kiss the air.
Sabrina kept her arms wrapped around his neck as she slowly opened her eyes to look up at him. “Yes. And… Im so sorry for making you feel like I used you. I never had those intentions. I don’t know what I would have done without you. I thank you from the bottom of my heart, Nick, for everything you've done for me. I just got scared that I may have lost you to Joanna. It’s like she will always have a place in your heart—“
“No...She will always be in my life because of Jossy…but she will never have a place in my heart. That spot is already taken…by you.” Nick interrupted her.
Sabrina smiled. “I love you so much, Nicholas Lancaster.”
“I love you too, Sabrina Marie Cain…Lancaster.”
Sabrina snickered.
“Nice ring to it, right?” Nick teased.
Sabrina paused and thought for a moment. She then said, “Sabrina Cain-Lancaster sounds better.” Sabrina giggled as she wrinkled her nose up at him.
She then took his hat off and put it on her head turning it to the side.
Nick smiled leaning down into her to kiss her lips.
They began to kiss each other passionately as Sabrina ran her fingers thru the back of his hair. Nick swiftly lifted her up off her feet wrapping her legs around his torso with ease.
Sabrina looked down at him as she lovingly caressed his face staring lustfully into his eyes.
“You know we could have avoided all that arguing if you just would have told me you were pregnant in the first place, right?” Nick said with a grin as he looked up at her while holding her.
“But isn’t make-up sex better?” She said in her sexy voice.
“Definitely.” Nick grinned.
Sabrina brought her lips inches away from Nick's full lips. She softly stated, “Please take me upstairs so I can make love to you.”
Nick smiled thinking how sexy she sounded saying those words as she wore his fitted baseball cap turned to the side. “Yes, ma’am…With pleasure.” Nick said softly and began walking upstairs to her bedroom.
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